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Name: fate_of_osiris
Gender: Female
Interests: food tasting (eating), daydreaming...
Occupation: student turning into unemploye
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Member Since:
2/7/2007
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| But as I always say Yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery, today is a gift, thats why its called present! There are 24 hours in a day....whether you live it happy or sad...there are still only 24 hours! I rather spend each and every single second happy than spend it worrying what will happen! Nature will takes its way...and time will unfold my destiny..I await the day of true happiness...but till that day comes, I will smile... if a smile can someone else happy, I will be happier.... Peace xx | | |
| after reading back my not so long and not so many xanga entries, i realised how stupid i can sound sometimes.. I guess I was going through my exams and making it everything over dramatic...so anyone who has had the chance to read my blogs..plz forgive my blogs.. So moving on...Ill like to say..i know not many people read my xanga ..esp not my friends...because most of them i havent told i actually use xanga...well i like writing my thoughts down...but sometimes a random stranger reading my blogs half way on the other side of the atlantic ocean is much more worthy for me to write this. Im in hong kong now...I finally moved back...its been two months..and funny enough ..i havent changed...people still think im happy all the time..with my silly little faces...but I guess its an easy cover up for anyone to hide under a smile..im not sad...yet im not happy..i think this is much better than when i my parents first moved to HK, I was very upset....I dnt know what ..I do like it here..but I miss my friends in Scotland...miss stupid talks and chats...and hissy fits that i have but my friends will still love me for who i am..and i can tell them when im upset..and just want to cry so hard..i cant breathe..here its different.. im not who i am..meeting new ppl..u gotta try and stay happy..show them ur good side...u know sometimes I wish ..i dnt even know what i wish for me..ive graduated but im just as lost as i was when i was 16. My gosh..I will be 21 soon...and i still have no goal...I think life is pointless withouth any aims and targets..but I gotta find ..some...really...whether it for myself, my family or friends.. I got to make my parents proud...but....so many buts... So today, I was rather upset..because someone gave me mixed emotions..and I guess it was my fault really for lettin him do that...I mean I just easily fall into something..and then get too happy about it..and it vanishes...i am so me!! I think im so mature sometimes that I forget how naive I can be sometimes. I really got to find something worthy in life to do, be it helping others, learning a new language..I just gotta stop having this ''prince will come and save me on a white house'' really....sometimes I must slap myself to stop day dreaming... Am I still allowed to dream? does everyone have a dream? I hope someone out there feels the same as me....im feeling hopeless...i came to hk to help myself....not to feel the same..............I shall be happy....! I will wait for the person...to find out the real me..im not that silly..im not that happy...i can be....but no one is happy all the time....i really do want someone ....to be here...wish scotland was nearer...i hate defeat..but im homesick..and miss friends......... | | |
| Finland was good...really interesting to see a new place..new culture..different people...went to my friends summer cottage by a lake..was really beautiful...sauna..swimming in the lake...rowing a boat..and bbq....in out short 3 day holiday, we even managed to travel to the capital Helsinki and see some tourist attractions...
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| In ancient Greece, curves were known to be beautiful. Back in the old Hollywood days of Marilyn Monroe, curves were loved. So why now we must become sticks? Biologically, its not right...as woman, we naturally have a higher proportion fat compared to our male counterparts. Psychologically, it must not be healthy on the mind to eat two salad leaves a day. And sexually, how can we feel confident with a pile of bones, no hips, no silhouette, no figure.
So why are so many successful, intelligent women of all ages succumbing to this awful trend of becoming the size 0? Because we see these pictures of these ever amazing celebrities who are preened 27/4, pampered from head to toe with beauty products? We normal, everyday woman, on the other hand, have a job, have another life apart from looking good, dont have the time to polish ourselves to perfection. Remember these celebrities are MADE to look good, their job IS to look good. But underneath the all the make up and hair extensions and designer clothes, theyre the same as us.
So it may be ironic that I have said all this because in one months time, I shall be doing all sorts of diets to fit into my bridesmaid dress in August. I must not eat all the foods i like (cheesecake) and go to the gym everyday and lose about 20lbs in two short months to fit into this dress. Why? Coz Im a hypocrit...just kidding..only coz I have to....I will most likely start piling on the pounds again after this wedding.
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